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I don't like to write in this anymore. I kind of hate the idea of publishing my thoughts for the soul purpose of people reading them and giving me feedback (but I do respect and probably value your opinion). I'm writing in a real journal now and I sometimes blog on Myspace, but not much anymore.
I'm leaving Northwest Indiana behind me and there are very few non-family members that I want involved in my life anymore. I'm done with all the disrespect, selfishness, and hate.
Off to Bloomington I go.
Next stop, Africa.
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| That's too bad.... |
[22 Jul 2008|03:12pm] |
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Tears of Gold-Ryan Adams |
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Are our closest friends actually people we admire and people we look to for support or are they just slightly entertaining people we've stumbled across after we got sick of all the other low-lifes in this damn town? We get bored so easily. It's no wonder people go through friends like toilet paper.
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[10 Jul 2008|10:48pm] |
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At a time when I don't think I've ever used the word "perfect" so many times in my entire life everything seems to be falling to pieces for those around me. I'm sorry, I really am...and I hope you make it out alive.
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[23 Jun 2008|11:19pm] |
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Livin' in the Future-Bruce Springsteen |
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That boy is truly amazing.
The only way I'd be happier is if I worked less.
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| And so the story of one of my greatest heroes dying begins.... |
[27 May 2008|12:32am] |
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Sink or Swim- Traffic and Weather |
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Right now I'm okay with it, but sooner or later shit is going to hit the fan and I'll break down.
I'm just thankful that I'm surrounded by so much love right now. I have people in my life, one in particular, who can help me deal with this. Everything will be okay.
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| Disregard... |
[19 May 2008|11:56pm] |
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Most of what was said in that last entry. I have a job at Oberweis now and an interview at Subway inside of Wal-Mart (gross, I know...don't care) tomorrow. I'm pretty sure I'll get the job since a girl from my church works there and told my mom that her boss at Subway thought I was really sweet and nice. Working two jobs is gonna suck, but money is money I guess.
Also, I'm unbelievably happy. Everything is perfect.
I'm sure these posts will get annoying.
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[18 May 2008|02:42am] |
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Fresh Feeling-The Eels |
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I've been home for two weeks and still don't have a job. I have an interview Monday, if that doesn't work out I might take the job at Oberweis for minimum wage and/or a job at Subway.
I couldn't be happier....even if he does have a stupid mustache.
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[07 May 2008|02:10am] |
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I'm home for the summer and things are going pretty well. I have a job interview Thursday for this hotel in Chesterton. If it winds up being ballin' I'm sure I'll stay there and transfer to the one in Bloomington.
I just got my grades back. I have a 3.88 cumulative GPA and got 3 A's and 2 A-'s for my Spring semester.
I'm pretty happy about this. Freshman year has really set the bar high for me as far as my grades go, I really really really want to keep it above 3.5 at the very least. I know things will get a lot harder, but it feels really good doing so well in college after being barely above average in high school.
My car overheated today. Some dude helped me out. It was very nice of him.
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| Peoria/Chicago. |
[22 Apr 2008|05:55pm] |
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Part One-Band of Horses |
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Slept on a hotel floor with 7 other people Friday night for the small price of eight dollars.
Slept in a garage Saturday night.
Slept almost all day Sunday.
This has been by far one of the best series of 4-5ish days ever. I hadn't seen Mike in close to a month, so a long weekend together was really cool.
I got to see Ryan, one of my very very very good friends who I haven't seen in a year. It's a bummer when our only time we get to hang is at shows, but something is better than nothing I suppose. I'm sure we'll be hanging out at least a couple times during the summer.
The semester is winding down and it feels like I have little to no work to get done, but at the same time it seems as though it's all going to smack me in the face the last couple days of finals when I'm trying to get everything packed up and make sure I've got all of my school stuff situated.
I don't know if I've said it yet, but my life seems so perfect. I'm really looking forward to spending the summer with my boyfriend and best friends in Chicago and at the beach. I'll probably be working a lot (at a job I have yet to find), but it shouldn't be so bad.
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| Way too much excitement. |
[08 Apr 2008|12:33am] |
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Oh Sesquehanna-Defiance, Ohio |
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It's Little 500 week and I have a paper due Wednesday that I haven't started yet and I have an exam on Tuesday. Luckily the paper is about globalization and its impact on the environment, so it's something I can elaborate on and pretty much EVERYTHING is intertwined with globalization. Once this paper is done I'll be in a better mood, but I'm still in a pretty great mood.
I have work and class all week except for Friday so my partying is limited compared to the rest of IU with it being Little 500 and all. I want to go to the race, but it's supposed to be crappy out so that's not happening.
I'm pretty sure I'm getting a tattoo this weekend....and I am seriously excited as all get out.
Next weekend will be the greatest ever.
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| Why am I so lucky? |
[27 Mar 2008|01:52am] |
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I have parents who tell me they're proud of me all the time and buy me things I don't deserve.
I have a sister who is so smart and finds time to send me packages for no reason.
I go to an amazing school in an amazing town where I take amazing interesting classes.
My boyfriend and friends are fun and interesting and care about me as much as I care about them....which is a lot.
I don't know what I did to deserve any of these things, but I'm sincere when I say that I really wish every one could experience this.
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| Funny how you just break down, waitin' on some sign. |
[19 Mar 2008|09:29pm] |
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It's been a while since I've updated.
I have no complaints, everything is pretty much perfect.
My (long distance) boyfriend is pretty much every thing I could want. The fact that we've been friends for a while has helped a lot. We're pretty much hilarious and sometimes adorable together.
School is going really well, I have a feeling things are about to pile up at the end of the semester though. I'll manage.
I'm looking for a summer job in Valpo, and so far it's not going well. It's only been a week since I've applied at places, so I shouldn't get nervous.
So here's pretty much the best news ever: I'm seeing Bruce Springsteen tomorrow.
For those of you who know me well, he's pretty much my favorite artist, and he's playing with the full E Street Band so I am super pumped.
I guess that's all for now.
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[21 Feb 2008|02:56am] |
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Everything is awesome and wonderful right now.
I currently miss home a little bit, my Spring Break won't be wasted with the fools I used to roll with.
I've got priorities nigga.
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| So I guess I'm gonna get all lovey dovey for a sec. |
[09 Feb 2008|03:52am] |
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I'm realizing more and more how much I really like my friends right now. I really think I've got a bunch of solid relationships going on right now. Not all of my friends hang out with each other, which is fine, but I'm sure we'd all get along if we were stuck in the same room.
I guess my main point is we all fuck up. I've fucked up multiple times, I've seen my friends fuck up, but I'm noticing how smart we all are. We analyze our decisions and become better people as a result of a slip up. Whenever I fuck up, my friends are there to tell me not to sweat it, that's life, and we all do stupid shit. I'm pretty confident in my friends' abilities to tell me to get my shit together when I'm seriously in bad shape....which has yet to happen.
I guess I'm just really happy right now that no matter how dumb I get, my friends will always be there to tell me when I need to seriously take a look at myself or when it's not a big deal and I'm still a good person.
Just sayin'.
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| 5 minutes, hours, days, weeks, MONTHS, YEARS. |
[02 Feb 2008|03:19am] |
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Soco Amaretto Lime-Brand New |
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Oh wow. Junior year, welcome back.
Only now, more alcohol and hopefully more knowledge and experience.
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| Oh boy, I lied. |
[28 Jan 2008|01:28am] |
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Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows-Brand New |
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This weekend has been absolutely beautiful. February is approaching fast and I hate that damn month so much. There's a reason why it's only 28 days long...no one likes it. If you're reading this, February...NO ONE LIKES YOU.
Right now I feel like my concrete friend here.
hehehe
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| I really want it to be warm outdoors so I can go hiking. |
[14 Jan 2008|04:17pm] |
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Oh me oh my it has been a while since I last updated. Since we last spoke I turned 19 and had a silly little hotel party in celebration of my Birthday. I was pretty happy with the outcome. I got a turntable for my birthday and a new phone which makes me very happy. Nikki got me records and they are wonderful.
Being back in Bloomington is overall an amazing feeling. The school week is crazy, but I like being productive again. I have a job so I'm awake by at least 9 am every day except Friday's. Having money is going to be nice.
I'm not sure what to say about my classes this semester. Most of them are required, but as with all requirements I try and get the most that I can out of them.
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[01 Jan 2008|08:41pm] |
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All I Need-Radiohead |
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It's time to go back to Bloomington.
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| Remember this? |
[15 Dec 2007|12:56am] |
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When the Sun Sleeps-UnderOath |
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I'm on break, and so far...everything is perfect. It's only going to get better.
If you're really interested in how I feel right now, keep reading.
I don't deal with bullshit anymore, I'm too good for that. It sounds cocky but seriously, I sacrifice myself for people who actually matter. I sure as hell don't bend over backwards for fuckers I don't know. You can only fuck me over so many times until I decide you're not worth it. Of course I'll hang out with the people who I consider to be a good time but right now that's all you are to me. Unless you give me a reason to take you seriously...I probably won't.
I'm sure I sound like an egotistical asshole, but I'm not. I'm still the same down-to-earth Natalie, I just don't take shit.
On a lighter note, we were at The Hookah for like 4 hours tonight. I made a complete ass out of myself on karaoke completely sober and I don't give a fuck.
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| Right now... |
[05 Dec 2007|02:08am] |
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Dinner With The President-The Evens |
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I feel invincible. If you dare try to hurt me, I will come back stronger and more amazing than ever. You think you actually have the power to hurt me? Don't flatter yourself, babe.
I'm thoroughly convinced that I'm amazing and I deserve the best. Fuck you.
This is quite a mood change from my last entry, deal with it.
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